Tuesday, January 31, 2012


A very late to comment to these days just to tell that I FAILED. I have FAILED to fulfill my treatment to write everyday. Up to today, i have less write and type. And make my mind grew small in thinking and less creativity.
Damn. I hate to admit it but it is really a failure act.
I dont want to come up with any reason and really hate reasoning. I wish that i can really write and think more. And i really blur when it come to keyboarding. But when i am in my car, driving 3-4 hours for my travel quest, a lot, really lot that i wanted to write, but when i met my keyboard, everything blocked! damn.
see u again then. it is too late to wish Happy New Year.
My laptop broken, my Blackberry aint like i thought. DAMN. 

Friday, February 11, 2011


   There are two kinds of people in this world. There are do-ers and other is talker. Simply say, doer is the one who actually do things, create things, creative, innovative, act and re-act, DO things or walk the talk and come with 'did and done' after that. Even sometime their action is wrong. And talker is the one who just talk, maybe talented or gifted to just talk. Maybe trash talk to motivation talk, but it is just talk with sound and noises. ha-ha, i am not going to judge you or judge any of these kinds of people, for good or bad, true or wrong, nice or rude between these two.
   But I am going to tell about another kind of people who actually exist in between these two. Believe it? Gotta believe it though. There are people who not really talk or even not really do. Not gifted with talk mechanism and also not gifted with do skills. These people I called 'watcher'. They do watched other people. They not actually talk bout what they do and not actually done a lot for themselves. They learn from observing the nature of people, the environment and the world. Then actually they act to just avoid the one that they feel not save. Their action is just a save hand and not involve in heavy crisis in between peoples. It is like when you play a maze, where a lot of obstacle in path, you will play it to turn around and move another way to save path for the point of objective. The watcher guy is this kind of behavior.
   They do think what best for themselves and even for others, but they wouldn't talk it. They would keep it until it just forgotten. Maybe it sound selfish, but as I say, they are not equipped with talk mechanism. They don't know to talk out of it.One other reason is, even they talk it out, public will here it sound as rubbish. Even talk itself, need talent and people who gifted can have a good talk. Other would listen. For a non talker, people wouldn't listen. And for a do skill, this guy will only have maybe has one or non expertise. He may have a basic in some skills required. Enough for him to get food on his table for his wife and kid. The real do-er is the one when he did, will impact, for him and for all. 
    As I say, action is subjective. It has never bound with right and wrong. Sometimes, right action you do (as you thought so) can become wrong to other people. And wrong doing also can be right to other as well. It is subjective. Same as talk. To many talk may lead to destruction, but the motivation talk also sooo many words but it lead to goodness. It is also subjective. Improvise. 

Talk the Walk? Walk the Talk? Walk Walk Walk? or Talk Talk Talk? or just Watch Silently.... 
Pick and choose. It is your choice.

Thursday, February 10, 2011


A phrase that makes me laugh.. Dont judge a book from its cover. One oldest phrase of all time. Created by our elderly. It comes in many languages, many version, all the same meaning. Why am I laughing at this good phrase? You know why? Because, I dont think people do what they says. Even those elderly. 

All people do is the contrary exactly the word different. People do judge a book from its cover. Maybe to read a book, they might read the synopsis first and not judging from its cover. But it is literally the book. What the phrase given here is book that refer to human. The people we try to judge. And it is always start with looks. ah-ha. Funny human. Funny elderly and yet they ask the young to do what they do contrary. Isn't it unfair and a little bulls*it. ah-ha. As I like to say, people has unique way to save themselves, to feel save, that is why this phrase appear in their mind. They dont want people to judge them by they hideous look (in and out hehe ;p)  but yet they judge other people out of their freaking mind just from others looks. 

And it is very disturbing, when I, myself apply this word for myself. Very disappointing when I, myself feel betrayed by my own kind to just applying this practice. How naive that I will really meet these kind of people that would judge people not from its cover.

*too bad is it..* it is rare *

Wednesday, February 9, 2011


Internet, broadband, telcos, 3G etc of all technology services and provider has claimed their product the best. But how far its true?

I work for a one third-party service provider company where I accidentally knew secrets about major provider. You can give up to 2M service to your customer but the  real speed is not actually 2M. It is because you can only give the 'number' to the customer. Just imagine, previous infrastructure was build up for maximum 1M speed, how can you just upgrade the speed using software upgrade up to 2M. The hardware for the service actually cannot mount to it. That is actually happen here in Sarawak mostly.

That is why, some times I thanks the thieves who steal this telcos copper wires severally which lead these fellow telcos to change their wire to Fibre Optic. Which much better and reliable for actual speed which the customer paid. I knew this from the telco staff himself. Even the number state 2M doesn't mean the service actually 2M. Because you as user can feel, if 1M service acts like X, and 2M must be speed as 2 times X. Simple calculation. X is refer to the time to browse one page. And if you feel the X still the same, it is not as 2M at all. Even it is stated there 2M service. That's mean 'you are punked!!!" Haha.

Also same to 3G service, if the service feel like 2G. Aha... For some reason, it is 2G. Ask fellow foreigner, how they feel about 3G. Our here is actually not 3G. Not 2M. It is all prank. Damn.

Liars. Thieves. Bullshits.

Saturday, January 29, 2011


As I like to say, accepting human as human. People is indeed people. Human is indeed human. What I mean is human/people have desire, have hate, have lust, have positive attribute and also have negativity. I really mean it. People are not perfect at all. When they have positive attribute doesn't mean they are angel and without any darkside. They may have darkside which they hide. The matter is how they manage to keep their bad attributes and how bad their negativity.

You cannot hope people to be perfect to you when you yourself cannot be one. When judging people, clear your mind and never put sides. Don't side a people you want to judge, keep yourself as the judge in court. The problem is when people judging others and compare them to other people. People cannot be judge like that. Every person in the world are unique and need to be threaten as themself.

And how is that? My opinion is first judge they habit, then judge how they think, then judge how they react. Don't just blindly judging. Better socialize with them. Ask things, be part with them. Then you can see them,The color and their thinking. Observe. I always advice myself not to see thing in one side or narrow minded. See from top, aerial view. See wide. And most of all, I will try not to judge with injustice mind. Clear mind and clear perspective.

Then you'll see human is just human. People is just people. Superior man is people that do extra effort and manage their mind. That make them success.

People will do mistakes. No offence. Everybody does, everybody did. The thing is how people manage with the mistakes. Mistakes are subjective. Some mistakes is not count as one in other place. That makes it more subjective. Think.

Friday, January 28, 2011


Esok ku ditakdirkan travel ke Limbang. Hari Jumaat mun mok travel tok, rasa sik best. dah la mok travel ke Limbang. Macam2 jak concern yang akan timbul. Macam2 jak rasa sik best timbul. Bukan nya mok merepak atau merungut, tp ya la hakikat nya. Hari Jumaat tok mun bagi muslim, hari suci, sembahyang Jumaat hari Jumaat bah. ya sigek hal la. Mun gi travel jauh2 ya, lak payah la mok semayang.
Mun ke Limbang k darat time ari jemat juak, jem. Hmm bukan la jem tp queue panjang. Dengan org local mok keluar pegi bercuti weekend nya, dgn org Bruney mok keluar pun tujuan weekend nya, mcm2 hal juak la. Dah ya sigek yang sik best nya, andai la mun sangkut, mun kerja sik siap and terpaksa stay, kan makan weekend. Parah. hehehehe tp ya la hakikat nya kerja mcm tok. apa leh buat.
Bukan nya mok merepak atau merungut, anyway aku travel pun dibayar bah. Just ya la tek, obstacle nya ya yg sik berapa mok rajin ya. Mun nyuruh pegi weekdays, uish, anytime bah. Sik jadi hal pun. But, Life isnt Best without obstacle. Bye

Thursday, January 27, 2011


I was given a Blackberry device by my company as a tool recently. I guess it will be easier for me to update my blog but I end up wasting my time to find a blackberry apps to update my blog. Before this I have a mobile version of blog update in my previous phone but the line is not unlimited for data usage. I endup paying high bills so that is why  I seldomly update via mobile.
When this device received, it equipped with full unlimited plan for data usage, I thought it would be easier to browse and blogging. But for time being I need to load the whole page like I was using my desktop PC. So for a mobile user, it would be troublesome. All I can do is installing Opera Mini for my easier use for this update. Maybe later Ill try other things or gadget for this matter. Still finding time to check-in check-out this device.

Tuesday, January 25, 2011


When people weak, they will believe anything. I once heard it in a TV show. One strong quote to explain a lot of situation in life. That is why we need a strong mental believing in faith from when we once born.
Or else we will become weak person that believe what people want us to. Believing all the lies, buying all the product, they say jump and you say "how high". How high situation are commonly happen these days. People with no brainer but think they do have will try to change things that they can't. I wouldn't put all the blame to them alone but the merit also given to the people who give new false hope to them.
Weak mental with weak faith will lead these action. But afterall it was faith. Anything happen make sure your mental strong and your believing strong. Have faith, be grateful, and keep strong. Stay alive.

Thursday, January 6, 2011



As a child, she actively learn from her environment. She learn to stand up helped by the chair so that she can be higher. A child at this age will try to see in new perspective and new view. And so do Ain.She wanted to grab anything in her sight and taste it in her mouth. hehe, better watch out, at her age like this, extra care needed to avoid them from chocking things that aint right.  Some maybe hot or spices.

There is one time, that she grab spicy pepper out of supervision. She put in her mouth and some to her belly. And then she cry out loud of pain and hot. We panicked and try to help her out of the pain. We put ice, wash  her under running water. To see her with the red bruise from the spiciness just pain me in mind. That time , I try to just wipe her with ice cold to comfort her over and over again. Meanwhile, I keep remind her not to take the chilli or pepper again ever again. But, hard lesson paid, which until now, when she was told, spicy or hot, she would listen and avoid it by herself.

A reminder to all, when children at age where they really eager to know, they will explore very hard. They dont even know danger awaits. This is the crucial time, where parents really need to observe and monitor their little one extra care. You cannot stop then to learn the world but you can observe them to get what really matters.



I decided to design a lot of Ain's collage and publish here to the world. To see how fast she grew. To see her progress in life. It will be month by month progress picture. These picture taken in her 1st month, which occurs between 17th November 2008 - 16th December 2008. Mostly she sleep and feed. Easy to handle. 

See how cute she was back 2 years ago. How she takes her mom's face. Before she born, I was quite nervous how will I feel when she born. How will I manage to keep her, How this and how that. A lot of questions popping out of my head, one by one that might terrify me to the world of parenting. But I took it simply, as I always do. With no murk in my face and act like I already knew. I read and observe., but yet I am not telling that. For sure I learn from my surrounding how to manage all my questioning. I used my best ability, to copy-cat, in this situation well. And I am lucky to have Ain that really have minimal problem. Grateful and thankful to the almighty Allah. 

For the first time, I say, it is not really hard. I can take this. It also thanks to my lovely wife which learned from the best. She really knew to adapt in her first parenting experiences. She manage to get this from her mother and her before siblings. A month past, and we manage to get it well.